I have a rare-neuro-endrocrine carcinoma. In essence, cancer of the lymph system. I am not afraid of the cancer and all that it entails but I believe that I need to be around to take care of my ailing father. After that it doesn't matter. I would like the pain and the physical limitations to just go away for awhile. Have to admit--this thing called cancer is a parasite. It is totally alien to me. It has complicated my life and I resent it. Please pray for me.